Substack: Mud and Starlight

Dear readers, I know I do not update this website very often any more. I am not good at being consistent. But more than that, I find WordPress honestly not the easiest to navigate in terms of finding content that appeals to me and people to connect with. And, perhaps following from that, it’s never…

Poem: A normal butterfly + debut poetry collection

An old (but unpublished) poem to announce a new and exciting development: On the 26th of February 2024, my debut poetry collection, Murmurations, will be available for purchase (and I will turn 42, thereby becoming the answer to life, the universe and everything ;-).  In fact you can already pre-order the e-book here and the…

Neurodiversity, high sensitivity, and autism spectrum disorder

By popular (?) request, here is my personal essay about neurodiversity that was also included in my March newsletter.  Disclaimer: I will primarily be discussing ASD in the low support needs category – previously referred to as “high functioning” and/or Asperger’s, as that’s where I fit in and it’s what I know most about. The…

A poem every day – week 8 / Birthday / Break

It has been an interesting experiment so far, and I’ve definitely written more poems in the past 8 weeks than in my life up to this point. I’ve also written at least 15 poems I think are good, which was as many as I had written in the past almost 3 years.  So, there is…

Introvert, broken

Sunday 28th of March, 2021: I just looked at the COVID-19 overview page for the Netherlands and cried. It feels like we’ve been in lockdown since the dawn of time, and nothing is changing. I actually just googled when the current lockdown started, as I can no longer remember. When I typed in “when did…

A long awaited update – body positivity walk

So, I’m sure my 5 or so followers are all really preoccupied with what I’ve been up to lately and whether or not I’m OK, right?! 😉 Well, I am! OK, that is. A little stressed, a lot busy, and if we’re being honest also quite a bit proud. As I’ve alluded to in previous…

Wanting more (the burnout pt 2)

As I am considering my life from this weird limbo status of being on burnout sick leave, it occurs to me that the main thing I want is more, out of life, out of myself. The longer I am away from my work, the more impossible it seems to go back.* But how do I…

Push it real good

  For all I have worked on and all I have learnt about myself over the past few years, there always seem to be more lessons. Which is good, I guess. Evolving is good. But it’s also frustrating. These lessons don’t usually take a very subtle form. Let me explain: I have been working for…

New Year

I’ve never been a huge fan of New Year’s Eve. When I was young (teens and early twenties) there was always this build-up that New Year’s was going to be legen… wait for it.. dary, and it never was, so because there was so much build-up it inevitably ended up being disappointing. There was always…