By popular (?) request, here is my personal essay about neurodiversity that was also included in my March newsletter. Disclaimer: I will primarily be discussing ASD in the low support needs category – previously referred to as “high functioning” and/or Asperger’s, as that’s where I fit in and it’s what I know most about. The…
Category: My life
A poem every day – week 8 / Birthday / Break
It has been an interesting experiment so far, and I’ve definitely written more poems in the past 8 weeks than in my life up to this point. I’ve also written at least 15 poems I think are good, which was as many as I had written in the past almost 3 years. So, there is…
Introvert, broken
Sunday 28th of March, 2021: I just looked at the COVID-19 overview page for the Netherlands and cried. It feels like we’ve been in lockdown since the dawn of time, and nothing is changing. I actually just googled when the current lockdown started, as I can no longer remember. When I typed in “when did…
A long awaited update – body positivity walk
So, I’m sure my 5 or so followers are all really preoccupied with what I’ve been up to lately and whether or not I’m OK, right?! 😉 Well, I am! OK, that is. A little stressed, a lot busy, and if we’re being honest also quite a bit proud. As I’ve alluded to in previous…
Wanting more (the burnout pt 2)
As I am considering my life from this weird limbo status of being on burnout sick leave, it occurs to me that the main thing I want is more, out of life, out of myself. The longer I am away from my work, the more impossible it seems to go back.* But how do I…
Push it real good
For all I have worked on and all I have learnt about myself over the past few years, there always seem to be more lessons. Which is good, I guess. Evolving is good. But it’s also frustrating. These lessons don’t usually take a very subtle form. Let me explain: I have been working for…
New Year
I’ve never been a huge fan of New Year’s Eve. When I was young (teens and early twenties) there was always this build-up that New Year’s was going to be legen… wait for it.. dary, and it never was, so because there was so much build-up it inevitably ended up being disappointing. There was always…
The Guilt Spiral
The guilt spiral is a mystifying thing that occurs when bad things happen to people around me. I start to feel guilty that the bad things are happening to other people instead of me. And then I start to feel guilty about feeling guilty because bad things aren’t happening to me. At this moment there…
Fuck you depression, step 1: openness
I met an old friend today, But I turned and walked the other way. Depression is not so much a friend as an enemy, I suppose. But sometimes when you know your enemies this well, they almost seem like old friends. Yesterday’s post was part acknowledging to myself that I’m here again now, I’ve come…
Will I feel better in the morning?
For a long time (years) I’ve not felt much. By which I mean my feelings have been superficial. I can feel happiness, enjoyment, sadness and all those things, and do so quite frequently, but it doesn’t really touch me. I used to be on the other end of the spectrum. I used to feel everything…
Too much time, and too little. 