A long awaited update – body positivity walk

So, I’m sure my 5 or so followers are all really preoccupied with what I’ve been up to lately and whether or not I’m OK, right?! đŸ˜‰ Well, I am! OK, that is. A little stressed, a lot busy, and if we’re being honest also quite a bit proud. As I’ve alluded to in previous…

Wanting more (the burnout pt 2)

As I am considering my life from this weird limbo status of being on burnout sick leave, it occurs to me that the main thing I want is more, out of life, out of myself. The longer I am away from my work, the more impossible it seems to go back.* But how do I…

Push it real good

  For all I have worked on and all I have learnt about myself over the past few years, there always seem to be more lessons. Which is good, I guess. Evolving is good. But it’s also frustrating. These lessons don’t usually take a very subtle form. Let me explain: I have been working for…

New Year

I’ve never been a huge fan of New Year’s Eve. When I was young (teens and early twenties) there was always this build-up that New Year’s was going to be legen… wait for it.. dary, and it never was, so because there was so much build-up it inevitably ended up being disappointing. There was always…

Fudge, or “Why I used to be fat”

For as long as I can remember I have had food obsessions. When I was little, these obsessions revolved around things that I could never or rarely have. For instance: my mother was a vegetarian when I was growing up and I used to fantasize about meat. My aunt would babysit me, and apparently witnessed…

The Guilt Spiral

The guilt spiral is a mystifying thing that occurs when bad things happen to people around me. I start to feel guilty that the bad things are happening to other people instead of me. And then I start to feel guilty about feeling guilty because bad things aren’t happening to me. At this moment there…

Fuck you depression, step 1: openness

I met an old friend today, But I turned and walked the other way. Depression is not so much a friend as an enemy, I suppose. But sometimes when you know your enemies this well, they almost seem like old friends. Yesterday’s post was part acknowledging to myself that I’m here again now, I’ve come…

Will I feel better in the morning?

For a long time (years) I’ve not felt much. By which I mean my feelings have been superficial. I can feel happiness, enjoyment, sadness and all those things, and do so quite frequently, but it doesn’t really touch me. I used to be on the other end of the spectrum. I used to feel everything…

The loud shall inherit the earth

It seems to me that our society is getting increasingly louder. It probably depends on where you live, but in any city or residential area I believe this to be the case. For me, as an HSP, noise is probably my biggest “trigger”. I’m not sure what it is about noise that makes me particularly…

Reading in public and other HSP problems

One quality of being an HSP that I really appreciate most of the time, but that can also be quite stressful is that of immersion/empathy/vivid imagination. In Norwegian we have a word that  embodies this better: innlevelse. It literally means your ability to put yourself (live in) a new/imagined/foreign situation. So yes, empathy, but somehow…