Poem: Calamity

CalamityIs not the big thingsThose you live your life forDreading It’s the invisible, unexpected, unmentionableOut of the corner of your eyeIn the beat of silence between one song and the next CalamityIs not there in your neatly planned paperwork It roams the streets at nightSlipping through the unguarded cracksAnd fills your house like gasWaiting to…

Introvert, broken

Sunday 28th of March, 2021: I just looked at the COVID-19 overview page for the Netherlands and cried. It feels like we’ve been in lockdown since the dawn of time, and nothing is changing. I actually just googled when the current lockdown started, as I can no longer remember. When I typed in “when did…

The last normal day

I remember waking up four years ago, to my partner – who had been up all night – greeting me with: “Good morning president Trump”. I thought I was still dreaming. I wished I was still dreaming. I wasn’t dreaming. At the time I expected it to be one big bang. World War III. The…

Book review: Her Every Fear by Peter Swanson

Audible version, narrated by Eva Kaminsky 3/5 stars. Trigger/HSP warning: there are some lines from the killer about what he considers doing to a cat, which was disturbing, but the cat is not hurt. Kate Priddy has suffered from anxiety all her life, and about 5 years before the story starts, a traumatic event happens…